I don’t know why I am almost always on the defensive with people.  I don’t even know why I constantly feel like I am under sustained assault.  There aren’t any words that can convey the kind of fear that grips me most of the time these days, and I’m always afraid of it all falling […]

Riding on the delayed Red Line train toward Porter Square this afternoon, I spotted someone who reminded me of someone I knew back in grade school.  His name was Michael, stood at a brave five-foot-seven with a thin, wiry build.  There wasn’t much about him that was remarkable to me at the time aside from […]

It’s certainly been a while since I’ve taken the time to fill this void with thoughts made semi-permanent through the magic of technology.  A long journey was had from San Diego to where I reside now on one of the very Western edges of Boston, and the change of scenery has put me in something […]

Agitation is the entire reason we continue to breathe, continue to strive, continue to innovate and try our damnedest to make things better and make things that do what we want more efficiently.  Anger is just the reaction of a mind in rebellion against mediocrity and against the status-quo that keeps it locked-up and in […]

There is no reason; there is no lesson to be found in admitting any kind of defeat or failure.  ‘Failure’ is just finding a hundred-thousand methods that don’t work.  There are no lessons to be learned or reasons to erect walls around oneself when failure rears its ugly head.  As a matter-of-fact, when you shut […]

You’re what I rise in the morning for, You’re the reason I lay down to sleep utterly exhausted. You’re the reason I cry over all the big things and laugh at the myriad of minutia. You drive me to drink, raise me to lust, push me to succeed, and dare me to fail. You pull […]

(Loose response to an article here: http://www.slate.com/id/2304416/ ) Can violent unrest occur in America?  The better question in response to that question is: “Do I even have to ask this question?”  Not only is it likely, I imagine if the current trends in American politics and the reductionist/eliminationist speak continue, there will be a far larger […]

It’s been a long couple of weeks.  Got back from Burning Man on Monday afternoon, took a real shower, and went out with my boyfriend to #1 on Fifth Avenue in Hillcrest and played a couple rounds of pool.  Makes me realize just how much I take the subtleties of modern life for granted a lot […]

Once again this space has become dormant; but not by choice, I assure you.  My life has become quite complex and amazingly busy as of late, granting me no shortage of instability or chaos. A number of themes have been recurring as of late in my life, many of which having to do with a […]