A great number of us spend a lot of time worrying about appearances.  “Keeping up with the Joneses”, keeping up appearances, making it, whatever.  Doesn’t matter what it’s called, it’s exactly the same. It’s wearing a mask in the hopes that it will appease the tribe and bring favors, fortune, friends, and lovers.  It hollows […]

I stress too much.  I burn myself out by caring too much. I beat myself up too much.  I stay up late too much.  I talk and play too much.  I complicate things too much. There’s too much traffic, too much noise, too many people, too much static in my head, too much going on, […]

I think it’s been quite a while since I’ve had any objectivity on the subject of my family or my home life.  Filling out what my therapist calls a “geneogram” has certainly given me a lot to think about in that regard.  About the gaping hole that remains in my life because of the absence […]

It does not escape me that I am surrounded by detritus. I am ensconced within a quivering and unstable fortress of stuff tied directly to old memories and painful past lives. Not a second escapes my notice wherein I am able to see all of the old things that hold my life and my memories […]

One thing that has always irked me about interacting with other people is getting interrupted when someone asks me for information or tells me “that’s more than I wanted to know”.  I always feel as though that’s a cop-out and an automatic response to something that isn’t going to hurt them in the least.  It’s […]

It seems as though on long journeys between distant points on this Earth I get restless and deeply introspective. I find it hard to communicate with people outside of this context and become more withdrawn and unable to be my truest self in this head-space. I’m not sure what to make of it or why […]

What does the state of our discourse say about us as a society when we are concerned not with the necessity or efficacy of the expenditure of resources on those with less, but on whether or not it is “right” or “moral”? At what point did the purpose of any appointed leadership role at any […]

“This is too hard” “I’m just not good at this” “There are way more talented people doing this already” “I give up” Life isn’t easy. Life, in all of its chaotic splendor, is just as likely to hinder you as to help you. Life itself is a challenge, issued forth from the deepest portions of […]

It’s been interesting the last week or two since I’ve come back from Burning Man. Getting back into the flow of work and private life hasn’t been terribly difficult, but dealing with the ramifications and the changes to the my inner world has been about as difficult as anything else I’ve ever done in my […]